Had a private lesson with a guy I swear was new way after I wasn't new. I used to think he was a total Spazmotic. In fact, I STILL think he's a Spazmotic--but we connected a bit in a way that I wasn't expecting. He is spazzy, but I have a new found respect for where his head is at. I actually look forward to training with him instead of how I felt the first few times I trained with him last year.
My form for thai kicks is fairly solid once I got properly retrained. I've lost all height--which is a problem. My normal "hip height" for a kick is er, closer to other folks knees. Most folks aren't going to be able to hold pads low enough for me to get my form right while I try to relax my hips .
And that is the crux of my problem right now. Besides the old injury healing--I'm sitting all day and my hip flexors are a total effin' wreck and shorter than short. He gave me really good advice which is--I am going need to stretch the bajeezus out of them for awhile. I'm going to have to just get into a thai stance rocking motion for about half an hour before training to quite my mind and body so I can relax enough to kick (because right now I am so afraid of hurting myself that everything gets out of alignment and screwy because I'm not trusting my body to do the right thing), and finally--I'm going to have to practice working myself SLOWLY into the splits so I can retrain my hips to deal with it.
I'm glad I have a heavy bag to work on at home. Just need to actually fill it with water so I can get moving.
He did say that when we are conditioning that I just need to condition and not worry about form. I simply disagree right now. I'll talk to A. about it since I'm taking his class. I would LOVE to "just condition" and not worry about it. More than anything. But I don't feel confident right now not to re-injure. I just want to work on form until I can quiet the fear. The fear is what is going to re-injure me.